belonging
Do families still make any sense when kids are grown up? Seems to me like many families develop as projects. The little ones give sense to the adult ones. Is a family with not-kids-anymore like a software development project with not-product-anymore? Seems to me like it is the case. When kids are not longer at home, do we make sense anymore?since I agreed with myself that I'm not important, what is going to be important? Dogs, probably.
It seems that we are heading towards a really nasty war, or conflict, or something big that is going to extend as a shadow into every home so I will have probably enough to worry about in some years.
Concert was great, concert was awful. I still cannot decide which version I want to believe, which memory I want to save. I did not enjoy while playing. From the moment it started I just wanted it to fast forward so I can get over it. I could not take my eyes off the music sheet. At the same time, I wanted it to last, because I studied way too much for it, and it felt unfair to let all that work go in 90 minutes. I wish I was that drummer that did not have to read the music sheet, that even while her playing is simple, she is great with tempo, and keeps everyone glued and going. This is what I want to be. I attempted to it, did not happen thought. Played mostly OK, nothing too fancy, but kept it together. Probably I just need to be exposed a bit more to get that tranquility and confidence.
Sound was terrible. Techs forgot the lights on all the time, so the movie projections were barely visible. Drums, not mine, were cheap and with poor sound. Regarding music execution, there were some mistakes, from many musicians and singers, myself included. But in the happy other hand, crowd seemed to enjoy a lot. Full place. They sang, they stood up, our front-man did the magic and got everyone in his pocket. Chorus team was so full of energy and happy, they lifted everyone up. I learned, I think next time I will be much better myself. The rest of the musicians have immensely enjoyed the concert, they are talking about it all the time, for days now, sharing videos, audios, they are so happy about how it went. So seems like concert was a total success.
Back to my family, today the four of us attended a recital from the music academy our kids attend to. Well, actually just the eldest, since the youngest quit. She sang the first and she wanted to go home already. They left, but I stayed, the full recital, 26 people. Many of them are not ready to show anything, cause what they do is way too far from sounding nice. Some others did it so good they trigger in me tears and shivers.
There was this older man, singing while looking someone in the public. It was his daughter, who was vocalizing the lyrics along with him, so he does not forget. His voice was very powerful low-pitched, very great. A bit out of tune. Then she sang and he recorded her. I liked their combo. But she was also out of tune, most of the song.
Do they know? (・_・?)