Reality check
I had a hard way forgetting about a person. He was a dear friend of mine. It was painful to reach the point where I concluded that the only next possible step was to forget. And I did by a mix of avoiding thoughts, trying not to re-visit memories, and changing the subject in my mind. That conscious battle in first line does not get done much, but the time does the rest. Sharp corners get rounded and, while I still remember the core issue, all the surroundings already started to fade.
This was an effort of years. Life is healthier now.
But the night dreams world is brutal. I was lucky not to dream about the subject too often during the forgetting battle, but I did tonight. In one hour, maybe in few minutes, I will have forgotten all about the dream. Actually I'm already avoiding to revisit it so maybe is already gone. It made me feel so sad. The loss was presented to me concentrated, without the magnitude of time. And it was a huge void, white, its totality hit me hard.
It made me feel that the reality is hidden in the night dreams and we only get to understand it once in a while.